It will crush your spirit faster than you can repeat it.
It can make you feel tiny and inferior to anyone and everyone else around.
Its the dirtiest word you can believe and if you let it make an impression on you, it can be paralyzing.
Fear grapples at your jugular trying to gain a foot hold to control your actions.
Fear locks out the light in your vision. Becomes the clouds dampening rays of hope and warmth of belief.
Just say “Fuck it!” and then do it anyway.
Ever have that dark cloud of self doubt roll in and in it’s loud boombing voice ask who the hell you think you are to be doing this, or teaching this, or thinking that you are crazy to think you can accomplish that?
I am so in love with this idea.
No, I’m not talking about an extra-marital affair.
Let me explain…
I was introduced to this idea by Elizabeth Gilbert’s new book “Big Magic,” and I am so inspired by this notion.
She talks about having an affair with your work, like two lovers in the throws of a love affair.
Now if you aren’t partial to thinking about having an affair, no one said it had to be infidelity, just an affair to remember. Remember how it feels to meet someone new when it just sparks?
"Remember that people's judgements about you are none of your business...
Recognizing this reality, that the reaction doesn't belong to you is the only sane way to create. If people enjoy what you've created, terrific. If people ignore what you've created, too bad. If people misunderstand what you've created, don't sweat it. And what if people absolutely hate what you've created, what if people attack you with savage vitriol, and insult your intelligence and malign your motives, and drag your good name through the mud?
Just smile sweetly and suggest as politely as you possibly can that they go make their own fucking art.
Then stubbornly continue making yours."
"Big Magic" by Elizabeth Gilbert
This may be the most terrifying thing I have done to date for two reasons.
Putting your creations out there, raw and exposed, is like tossing your new born to the wolves. Will they take it in as their own or will they rip it to shreds.
Making a commitment. Each and every week to produce something publicly.